Well, it's almost midnight but here I am in my only free time of the day making a effort to address a dire need in my life right now......connectedness. It's seems so ironic to think that my best hope of achieving this would be through my laptop but such is the world we live in. It's a sad reality but I rarely ever have the chance to process let alone articulate the deep things going on inside me. I no longer have the luxury of hours alone at a coffe shop waiting for God to come and help me sift through and make sense of my thoughts and feelings. I miss those days but I have come to terms with the fact that they are gone and may not return until the age of retirement. But, that is not necessarily a bad thing. I have learned so much from this season of life already. It's just that the learning looks a lot different from the incubated accelerated version that was college. I live in the real world now, a world that is so very different from anything I have known. A world of small town farmers, farm workers and their families....with little place to go to find spiritual or intelectual connection. Even as I write I struggle because I would so much rather have connectedness with actual human faces in a physical place WHERE I LIVE rather than with screen names in cyber-space. But, until then, this is my best option for regular, any-time-of-the-day-like-with-college-roomates kind of interaction. Here's to it.